here i am

At 5:00 this morning an airplane took my baby brother away to the land of sun and sand. That plane carried away my heart ... Took away the one person in my life who knows me well enough to always call me on my shit ... The one with whom I can talk about anything in the universe ... Who makes me laugh until I can't breathe ... Who always fixes my muffler and my brakes ... The most honest man I know ... Who threatens to beat up anyone who would cause damage to my soul, and never loses patience trying to coach me through a hopeless attempt at a bank shot ... The one who isn't afraid to say and do the things that are real ... The one I know will find his way someday ... The one who hugged me for 10 minutes last night, and risked his macho card crying after I pushed a wad of bills into his hand, to help him on his way. Somebody better take care of him, 'cos I find myself once again at a crossroads of our lives where I can't anymore. M

5 wrought iron dancing people with straw clothing - ostensibly of african persuasion. 2 light blue votive candles in some sort of 'ocean' or 'rain' scent. A wooden "Teachers Have Class" door hanging, complete with dangling wooden pencils. 2 mugs - one ugly, one lovely. (The ugly one proclaiming me to be the Best Teacher, the lovely one with an art deco rabbit hugging a heart, and saying "I love you so much" inside the rim). 1 metal silhouette of a cat, with a tiny string to hang it ( where? ) by. Two wool skirts (1 red, 1 blue), and a blue hawaiian print sundress - none of which will fit me nor will I wear. A perfectly drab looking tiny windchime that makes the most beautiful sound.. 2 dollar store "Balance for Your Life" CDs - Peaceful Ocean and Deep Sleep. 1 birthday card with a photo of an ancient skinny woman doing a leg lift against a bus stop sign - the inside of which reads: "As long as you can get it up, you know you're n...

cold brown rice cooked with lotsa olive oil and veggie boullion disappointingly marginally wilted spinach salmon marinated with pesto that I cooked on thursday (tastes like steak for some reason!) cucumbers (not english ... the store didn't have any) tomato basil feta a few basil leaves torn apart hastily lemon juice white balsamic vinegar sea salt cracked pepper a fork that matches none of the other forks in the drawer