so i'm moving. far away. to start a new life. to another country. to another continent. in a few months i'm leaving all of this and all our past behind. and since i told you this, and maybe even before, you've been keeping a studied distance between us, and understandably so. i don't expect anything different. i know there are things we still haven't talked about. things you feel, i feel, that we just don't get to. i gave you that distance and accepted the fact that our friendship has changed. it has no other choice. it feels strange, lost, hurts - all that stuff that i have no right to but nevertheless just is ... to be so far away from someone to whom i've been so close for most of my life. but you are still struggling with what if and where did i fail and how did it all go so wrong and what's he got that i couldn't give you ... and on and on ... and so it makes sense for you to not be able to be chummy and go out for pie and a chat li...