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She's Baaaaaaack!

This morning I did 11/24 - run/walk - about 2.5 miles.

Yeep! The new years resolutionaries have hung up their earmuffbands, so I've got the trails back to myself again. Did you think I'd given up? C'mon - I can't let those $100 shoes go to waste now, can I?

It wasn't as excruciating as I feared it might be. I wimped out toward the end, but my knee was bugging me ... plus I didn't want to push myself too hard so soon out of the gate again. I'd like to stick with this, if at all possible. I'm so terrible at sticking with things, generally. Well, some things. Other things I'm quite good at sticking with.

Lately I'm into summarily dismissing people from my life who don't treat me with respect. It feels good. Like taking a cold shower after a sauna.

I'm also wanting to listen to tiki lounge music and drink more red tea. I've just discovered red tea. I like the other colors of tea quite well - green, white, and even black from time to time. Red tea apparently has no caffeine, and it tastes like you're chewing on twigs. It makes me feel nostalgic. I think I liked to chew on sticks when I was a kid.

Once I got a barbed sticker thing from a bush stuck in my throat. It was a very panicky, frightened eyes trembling with tears sort of moment. My dad knelt next to me as I gagged by the toilet, and gave me some milk, which I think is what finally got it out - though I'm not sure how. My dad was scared for me, but comforting and calm and gentle. It took moments like that to bring that side of him out. I sort of felt like he saved my life that day. I was really scared.

M

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Kristiana said…
Welcome back...
Was wondering where you have been.

I know that feeling, its so empowering to cut someone off. There is a point where it becomes necessairy to learn that skill.

Anyway good luck with the running, good to hear your still at it.
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