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i started another blog on another site and i remember now why i did this one the way i did (with not many people i know in 'real life' knowing the address - if i had it to do over again, none would).

so i got sort of caught up somewhere in between and between that and being dead tired and exhausted with work, i got into a not-writing-much phase. ech. it's not a good place for me. i feel like a sawdusty wheel, or dried blood in decomposing veins.

non-flow.

now. it has been heavy air for days wanting wanting wanting needing to rain. i've been aching waiting sighing in the humid hot ... but more than that ... just so very unreleased.

and the sky has just unleashed itself and the air is cool burst open free flashing wet gushing wholly open.

so right this very moment i'm going to go get soaked and shimmy barefoot crazed in a puddle somewhere.

and hope to fuck i this is me starting to write again.

because i have a lot of stuff to say.

m

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Anonymous said…
"and the sky has just unleashed itself and the air is cool burst open free flashing wet gushing wholly open.

so right this very moment i'm going to go get soaked and shimmy barefoot crazed in a puddle somewhere."

This is lovely, inspiring, and energetic. Sometimes, expression is all that matters, though some stuff wouldn't hurt, either. :)
6:25 am
mayim said…
:)
8:10 am
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