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but it's true

i haven't written much here about being in love, because after such a tumultuous experience in the world of post-divorce dating, i didn't want to jinx this.

but somebody has to say something about the elephant. it's killing me.

it's hard to believe being in love once you've been in love once and it's failed. it makes you mistrust your own instincts and perception. what does it mean to have thought you had the right thing, and have it turn out not to have been?

it haunts every next right thing you may ever have and warns you away from trusting it.

or at least from talking about it - declaring it to be true.

so this is my disclaimer ...

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Professor Batty said…
... your instincts and perceptions may have been wrong, and will always be imperfect, but to let a past failure in love stop you from opening up with another isn't being fair to a new person, nor is it fair to yourself. It's complicated, it's messy, but when it works it is worth it. That said, if the same problems happen every time then the problem is something in you- if it's a different problem each time, then that's life. But to let the "elephant" determine the fate of every relationship is giving up.
6:49 pm
mayim said…
i am realizing now that my post may not have been sufficiently clear. the 'elephant' is the fact that i'm in love. it's there, it's obvious, i just haven't said anything about it yet.

i know: this is what i'm learning ... how to try again.

it's fun. i'm happy.

(:

thanks professor b.
10:06 pm
Professor Batty said…
...I've never been happier to be completely wrong...best wishes, and good luck...
7:19 pm
mayim said…
(:
7:33 pm
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